"Each time I saw you, I looked at you from someone else's eyes. I tried to understand you based on how others wanted me to. I weighed your beauty against others' definition. I criticized you and blamed you for your flaws because I was shown only those by people around me.
I made you feel more negative, fearful and incomplete weakening you every passing day because that's what I was told to highlight in you.
I forced you to love others more than yourself as that was the most important value I was taught to inherit from childhood. I burdened you with the thought of striving more and more in life in order for you to feel loved, approved and accepted.
I complained and accused you time to time for being weak and imperfect in the process of making you the most perfect human being. And most importantly, I expected you to understand everyone else while I misserably failed to understand you myself."
He looked down and let the tears drop on the carpeted floor - Lost & guilty of not recognizing his own true self. He looked at his own tears flowing endlessly, emptying him more with every single drop. He tried to stop them and hold them but yet they found their way to reach his cheeks. He cupped his face with his hands and sat still as if blocking and at the same time remembering every single moment when he consciously/unconsciously betrayed his own reflection. He looked up a while later and touched his own reflection in the mirror and made a confession with those teary eyes.
"I am sorry I weighed your beauty against others' definition. You have always been most beautiful in spite of it. You are beautiful inside out. I am sorry I always criticized you and constantly tried to make you become someone else. Today, I embrace and accept you the way you are. I am sorry for forcing you to love others more than your self. Today, I want to tell you that I will love you more than you ever loved anyone. I admire your strength for being strong even when I abandoned you myself. I belong to you with all my heart from this very moment. From today, I promise to love the imperfection in you in the most perfect manner. Today, I behold YOU for a lifetime."
And he recognized his own reflection for the very first time......
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